Word of the Day - Edify

I’ve heard some people say that drugs actually saved their lives.  What they meant was that they found a solution for them, at that time, instead jumping off a bridge.  It’s possible that this goes for me too; I had suicidal ideations most of my teenage years in to adulthood with 5 attempts of ending it all.  

Two of those attempts to take my own life was during a psychotic break while I was high.  So, drugs use in the beginning may have been a solution, however, towards the end I was back to wanting to jump off that bridge.  

One thing, I thank God for is music.  There are many songs out there that when I was in my darkest hour I would listen to and the lyrics did edify my diminished soul.  I am ever so grateful for lyricists, singers, composers and band that created songs that got me through.  

Today, listening to others share the experience in life as addicts and the hope as recovering addicts helps to lift my spirits as well.  I know that I cannot stay clean on my own.  I need to help and I get that help from others who have been through many of the same struggles I have and they still stay clean.   

Recovery helps me to remain open to having my spirit awakened  - one day at a time.