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January 31st - In Thought

Word of the Day - Moralize

As if I were ever the go to person when it comes to what is right and what is wrong.

I surely feel like it sometimes.  What terrible character defect to have (self-righteousness).  I had an opinion on everything that was not any of my business.  My using days I would look at other with disdain like I was so much better than them even though inside I hated everything about me.  

Still, I catch myself getting into that mode (Walk on water).  It’s a behavior that I am so familiar that I must put contrary actions into practice to keep it arrested.  

Recovery brings the focus on me and what am I doing and what type of energy am I putting into universe.  I am putting in the effort to be more of an active listener and to be of service to others rather than to just have a moral-hypocritical-high-ground opinion on things and people.

Staying clean I am learning when to STFU - one day at time