January 31st - In Thought
As if I were ever the go to person when it comes to what is right and what is wrong.
I surely feel like it sometimes. What terrible character defect to have (self-righteousness). I had an opinion on everything that was not any of my business. My using days I would look at other with disdain like I was so much better than them even though inside I hated everything about me.
Still, I catch myself getting into that mode (Walk on water). It’s a behavior that I am so familiar that I must put contrary actions into practice to keep it arrested.
Recovery brings the focus on me and what am I doing and what type of energy am I putting into universe. I am putting in the effort to be more of an active listener and to be of service to others rather than to just have a moral-hypocritical-high-ground opinion on things and people.
Staying clean I am learning when to STFU - one day at time