So, a few years ago I began the mission to lose weight; 40 lbs was my goal. Through diet, exercise, and a few cleanses I reached my goal and then some.

Even with the weight loss I find myself afraid of buying new clothing. I have a few things in smaller sizes, some of them I was not comfortable wearing out and I had them for over a year. I am able to wear them now but getting new stuff scares me.

I have this feeling that I’ll get the smaller sizes and in a few months I will gain the weight back and won’t be able to wear the items. Also, I got so comfortable covering up with the larger sizes; I tried on skinny jeans and felt exposed coupled with this idea that, even though they fit fine, that I looked ridiculous in them.  What looks ridiculous are my 32s falling off me. I hate sagging pants and yet I still put them on.

Writing this is helping see my crazy thought process.  I’ll buy a few things here and there, and I will continue to try and eat right and go to the gym like I have been doing.