It’s been awhile since I’ve given an update…. My goal was to lose 40 lbs by the time I turn 40 yo. Well, next month on the 24th I will be 40 yo. I started out at 198 lbs and, from the last time I weighed myself, at the doctor’s office, I am 171 lbs. 27 lbs lost!!! I’ve been told that it must be more than that because I have been losing fat and gaining muscle. I did go from a 34/35 waist to a 30/31. Friends have told me that I am getting ‘buff’.

So, the last 13 lbs may never really show on the scale if I keep strength training. What I am working on now is to lose my love-handles and hopefully start showing a 6-pack; this is the hardest part.

I will post the before and after whether the goal is reached or not.

Thank you to everyone that has supported me in this.

Around this time, last year, I weighed around 155 - 160lbs. Now I am almost 200lbs. Lately I have been having some serious body image issues. I am simply not happy with all the weight gain yet, I haven’t doing anything about it.

I felt I needed to write something just so I could see words as a type them and maybe I can work something out. You see, I am a recovering addict. My drug of choice was Crystal Meth. Combine that with not being happy about the way I look can lead me straight to trouble with a capital T.

My mind has been on the I-can-do-crystal-and-lose-lots-of-weight-no-time route for the past few days. I know it’s not a healthy solution but, at times, it feels like a great plan. Well, they say, “Feelings aren’t Facts!"

Most of my adult life I maintained my weight; between 150 and 160lbs. My current weight is the heaviest I have ever been. It’s funny how I am allowing this to make me feel sad and/or less than. That sorrow and low self-esteem is enough to have me less motivated to anything about my weight gain when I should be channeling that energy into something constructive, like exercise.

OK… so this what I have to do:

First of all, vanity is not a good excuse to pick-up a drug; there are no good excuses to use drugs.

Second, I live by a park; I can walk 30 minutes a day… then soon I’ll be able to jog 30 minutes a day.

Third, if I give time time, I will shed the pounds at a healthy rate.

Sounds like a plan!