former self

Shot in the Dark

So, I was going through my book-bag, I don’t remember what I was looking for, and I found this:

Alcohol Prep Swab

I don’t know how long it’s been in there.  As a former IV drug user I know why I put in there.  I was at a point where I was using everyday and if by chance I would hook-up with someone else that use the way I used I would always be prepared.  For a very long time I would administer to those that didn’t not know how to shoot up themselves.  NO, I did not introduce others to IV drug use.  They had already had experience with this method just didn’t know how to work the works. Nevertheless, I did help them further their addiction. 

Not sure how I feel about finding this.  I don’t feel triggered.  Annoyed? maybe, yes.  Annoyed that I may still find things here and there amongst my belongings that are remnants of my former self.