“It’s a struggle out here every day in the city. All the homeboys are using crystal. Blood, Crip, it doesn’t matter. They are all going crazy on crystal. It’s the new big thing in LA. They call it G-Unit or Go Fast. Everybody is smoking it or snorting it. You go to the Black communities and you’ll be surprised. It’s super abundant. It’s badass as a muthafucka and it’s fucking South Central LA up real bad right now.”
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What's Happening, Now?
It’s been quite some time since I have written a post relating to addiction and recovery. Today, I came to realize something while I was checking an app that I recently started using; Timehop. I use the app to post daily throwbacks however, four years ago today and the days before there aren’t posts. Well, it finally hit me; I had relapsed.
I was in relapse mode fresh out rehab earlier in the month and didn’t really discuss with anyone. It took a few weeks before I would pick up the drug (crystal meth) and ended up using for five days straight. It was miserable and I am grateful that it did not last longer than five days and that it did not kill me.
Now, don’t get me wrong, my life is not measured by how many posts I have on social media sites and the likes and comments I receive on those posts however; Timehop really brought it back for me. It reminded med that Nothing else goes in my life if I am using drugs. Forget posting on social media for a moment; If I start using drugs, then I won’t go to work, won’t go to class, won’t stay in touch with my family or friends, won’t have savings, won’t take care of my cat, won’t clean my apartment, won’t pay my bills, I take care of myself… I can go on and on. There honestly will be nothing going on in my life except for finding ways and means to get more drugs. That’s not living; that’s not a life worth sharing with anyone.. Not on Facebook, not on Twitter, not on Google+ and certainly not in person. That’s not what is happening now.
Today, I’m clean and living a life beyond my wildest dreams. It’s not what I thought it would be and it is better than it was four years ago and years before that. I have wonderful people in my life (family and friends). No longer am I stuck trying to get the next hit. I am actually living. I know that tomorrow and probably a few days after there will not be any posts from four years ago for Timehop to show me (I used up until 10/23/10) and that’s OK. Let it serve as a reminder that nothing good will from me picking up a drug. October 24, 2010 was my first day, back from a relapse, without using a self-prescribed mood or mind altering substance. That’s what’s happening; that’s what’s up!
Grateful
#DRUGS #CrystalMeth Becoming More Popular in Germany - SPIEGEL ONLINE →
In recent years, crystal meth use seems to have exploded in Germany, particularly along the Czech border. As researchers are discovering, the population of users is much more diverse than many people expect.
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