So, a few years ago I began the mission to lose weight; 40 lbs was my goal. Through diet, exercise, and a few cleanses I reached my goal and then some.

Even with the weight loss I find myself afraid of buying new clothing. I have a few things in smaller sizes, some of them I was not comfortable wearing out and I had them for over a year. I am able to wear them now but getting new stuff scares me.

I have this feeling that I’ll get the smaller sizes and in a few months I will gain the weight back and won’t be able to wear the items. Also, I got so comfortable covering up with the larger sizes; I tried on skinny jeans and felt exposed coupled with this idea that, even though they fit fine, that I looked ridiculous in them. What looks ridiculous are my 32s falling off me. I hate sagging pants and yet I still put them on.

Writing this is helping see my crazy thought process. I’ll buy a few things here and there, and I will continue to try and eat right and go to the gym like I have been doing.

Well, it’s the early morning of Day 6. I feel great and have felt energized since about midday of Day 3. If I recall, it took to somewhere between Days 5 and 7 the last time for me to feel this way. I went to the gym last night for some light cardio and very little weight training.

I have broken the 150 mark! I am 149 lbs. I am really doing this for detoxification purposes this round, but the added bonus is weight loss. Once I am done with the cleanse, I hope to gain back the weight in muscle. to put me back around 155 lbs. I’ve officially lost 7 lbs so far.

My skin is clearing up! I hate adult acne! I used real aloe (buy a branch and cut a cube of it it every other night) on my face; works wonders.

Anyway, I’m up early for the salt water flush… gotta get “going"