Today, 2 years ago, was my first day without smoking a cigarette!
I had my first drag when I was 11 years old (I’m 40 years old now). I would take a ciggy from my grandmother and try it. Of course I felt sick, but I thought I found something that separated me from the others. The kids that bullied me in JHS. After that school was shut down, I went to a different school, one grade behind because of all my cutting class to escape those that taunted me. I wanted top fit in and started buying my own packs. ($2.20 back then).
I smoked for years, I may have quit quit here and there (1 year, 3 years, a few months) but I always went back to ciggies; my first tangible drug.
I still have cravings but I am choosing life instead. It feels great to be able to walk up a flight of stairs without being short of breath by the time i get to the landing. I was cutting back on cigarettes about 4 years ago. Believe it, or not, when i was using crystal meth, I did not smoke cigarettes much. I would say that I purchased a pack every 3 days. That’s a savings of over $1400 a year by quitting. For a pack-a-day smoker, quitting smoking in NYC would save them over $4300 a year.
I will push through my cravings. I think I’ll have a light breakfast and head to the gym.