Today…. Later today that is, I have a job interview. I have not interviewed for a job since 2005. I haven’t had a salary paying job, with benefits, since 2007.

I started thinking about what I would have done if I were still using drugs when I received the call yesterday to schedule this interview.

I probably would have celebrated by using
I probably would have already been high
I probably would have agreed to interview and never showed up
I probably would have showed up for the interview crashing from using
I probably use to give me energy to get to the interview
I probably would blame the interviewer for me not getting the job

Those are just a few scenarios. The thing is, I am in recovery. If I were still active, I would have never updated my resume; I would have never applied for the position; if I did apply, I would have missed the phone call or just not answered the phone.

I am a little nervous about the interview, and that is OK. This is good stress, and I excel, usually, under pressure.

Whatever happens, this is one interview will at least get my feet wet, and I will grow from this experience.