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Movin' On Up...

Later today, I will meet with a counselor to discuss training opportunities so that I will someday return to work.  I have been already been accepted into the program.  ACCESS-VR (formerly VESID) will provide with a grant so that I may obtain new skills and return tot he workforce.  I have decided to train to become a CASAC (Credentialed Alcoholism and Substance Abuse Counselor).  

Things are headed in the right direction.  

Got to have a J O B...

Today…. Later today that is, I have a job interview.  I have not interviewed for a job since 2005.  I haven’t had a salary paying job, with benefits, since 2007. 

I started thinking about what I would have done if I were still using drugs when I received the call yesterday to schedule this interview. 

  • I probably would have celebrated by using
  • I probably would have already been high
  • I probably would have agreed to interview and never showed up
  • I probably would have showed up for the interview crashing from using
  • I probably use to give me energy to get to the interview
  • I probably would blame the interviewer for me not getting the job

Those are just a few scenarios.  The thing is, I am in recovery.  If I were still active, I would have never updated my resume; I would have never applied for the position; if I did apply, I would have missed the phone call or just not answered the phone. 

I am a little nervous about the interview, and that is OK.  This is good stress, and I excel, usually, under pressure. 

Whatever happens, this is one interview will at least get my feet wet, and I will grow from this experience.