Blackout

January 18th - In Thought

Word of the Day - Blackout

I had very few blackouts in my using days.  No embarrassing stories to tell about what my friends told me I did.  The few times that they occurred, I was alone and apparently never left my home.  

I found myself coming to once lying in my bathtub with my arms crossed over my chest as if I were a vampire awakening to the night.  What happened for the the 3 - 4 hours that I was in the blackout?  I have no idea, and there was no one there to tell me.  

There are some horror stories I have heard though.  The parent who come to at the hospital only find out that their spouse and children were killed while he/she was behind the wheel in a blackout.  The same person being hauled off by authorities having no memory of last 24 hrs. 

Who know what I could have done if I had left my home in a blackout.  I have a lot of ‘yets’ in my story.  

Staying clean helps me to keep the lights on - one day at a time.