Word of the Day - Unscrupulous
Murder is principle. A moral one? Maybe not.
Life in active addiction is an unscrupulous life. At least for me it was. Mostly everything I did went against my former better moral judgment. I could not see the wrongs I was committing against myself, my family, and society. My tunnel vision only led me to my dealers and back home to use some more. Nothing got in my way, certainly not scruples.
Recovery has helped me regain a conscience. I can see more opportunities to take the right action even it is the harder path to follow instead just going for the quick fix that might hurt someone or hurt me. I don’t have to view situations with a “what’s in it for me?” or “how can I get over?” set of eyes anymore. Pausing and assessing the bigger picture I can find ways to achieve many things without forcing my will onto you, him , them, her, or it.
Staying clean I get to share and care and stay aware of how my actions affect others - one day at a time