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Follow up on my post Pieces of Me

I have lost a total of 15 lbs now.  W00T!

I received the results of my biopsies… It appears that there is more High Grade Precancerous tissue that will need to be removed.  Better to catch it now… than to have it mutate into cancer later. Procedures will done next month.

On another note, this passed Monday was my one year anniversary of being clean and sober.  What a ride it has been, and I don’t plan on getting off.  My life has changed, I am not thinking of, or planning, my next suicide attempt; living feels better.  Life isn’t easy, but I am OK with it.  Certain healthy changes I want to make in my life I have already planted the seed for and someday they will come into fruition.  

Extremely grateful to everyone that has supported and that continue to support me on my journey.  Merci!

A Year in the Life

39 Years ago, today, I was born at 1:45am

Last year I spent my birthday in a drug rehabilitation center on Long Island.  It was the first time I had been clean & sober, on my birthday, I believe in 5 years.  Turth be told, sober is also a state of mind; I was not a sober state of mind.  That being said, I relapsed a few weeks after coming home from rehab.  My clean & sober date is October 24, 2010; making today 11 months. 

So, what’s to come in this year, on my way to the BIG 4-0?  Well, if I keep doing the next right healthy thing I believe all will be well.  I hope start training to become a CASAC at the beginning of next year.  I am still on my 40 lbs by 40 yo challenge (lost 5 lbs already).  One thing I really need to work on is reconnecting with friend and family.  There’s plenty more, like finding a boyfriend, maybe part-time work while I am in school, volunteering, etc etc.  Maybe the boyfriend thing will just happen when i least expect it (I don’t want to stress about it).  Everything else… I will have to work for while trying to not take it all on at once.  

I have a feeling this year is going to be great!